Saturday 31 May 2014

30 days of submission revisited - Days 12-16

The last day of May and another few days of 30 days of submission revisited. 

12) Do you include financial submission within the definition of your own submission and if yes, how does it manifest itself? If no, is there a particular reason why? Are you familiar with the concepts of financial submission? Do you have an opinion about financial submission in general?

This girl can't imagine that she would ever wish to include her entire finances to anyone else. The financial security that she has now is down to her own hard work and she has been badly burned in the past by her own husband and family members. As someone who once had to cut up her debit card and send it back to the bank and then was forced to use a joint account for years, this girl intends to always keep her finances within her own control.


Having said all of that. This girl thinks there might be some particular occasions that she would like to give her Master particular elements of financial control. The first thing this girl is thinking about is their impending trip to Lisbon (towards the end of June). This girl likes to pay her way, but is used to controlling all the finances when on holiday and finds that very stressful. This girl would like to suggest to her Master that she give Him her spending money and then He controls it. That way she gets to completely submit (they have already discussed that He should control her access to her mobile phone for that trip) to Him for those few days without any concerns at all. She can devote herself to Him. This girl thinks she would like that very much.


13) Is sexual availability, being available to your partner at any time he or she wants, part of your submission/? Why or why not? Are there limits to this?

This girl, being the slut she is loves this part of her submission. Part of it is definitely the fact He wants and demands that availability, makes it clear how much her availability is a turn on for Him. Master likes His girl without underwear when they are together; He likes to be able to touch Her intimately when they are out in a public place. This girl is all for the whole slutty humiliation thing. Limits? Well, of course this girl can't be with Him the whole time. Otherwise though this girl puts her trust and her body in the hands of Her Master on this one!

14) Does religion have any bearing on your decision to submit? If not, are you familiar with religious based submission and do you view it as similar to other types of submission or dissimilar?


There is no religion in this relationship other than the fact that this girl worships Master and particularly His cock. That this girl guesses wasn't what was being asked.

15) Has your submission evolved over time? If so, how has it evolved for you and if not (or if you are just starting out) how might you see or imagine it evolving in the future?


This girl's submission has not only evolved and changed since her first D/s relationship, but has also done so over the past 4 months since she and Master met. What is more this girl feels there is more much more to discover on that front.

As of today, this girl has not seen her Master in the flesh for 3 weeks and 3 days. That time of absence, while incredibly difficult has given this girl and Master time to think about their relationship and about this girl's submission. This girl knows that her Master is looking forward to her learning about herself as His slave. A journey that this girl is really just about to embark on. 

Some subtle changes are about the way in which this girl is willing to give up the power and control she has over herself and much of her life to Him. Gradually this girl feels herself becoming a more relaxed and thoughtful person, but one who knows where her priorities lie. There is much more to come on this area of girl's life. This girl knows that Master is looking forward to nurturing it. 

16) Have you found your submission has changed with different partners / relationships? If you're involved with partners of both sexes, does your submission relate or change based on gender or does it depend on the person?

This girl imagines that all relationships are different, since all Dominants are different. It stands to reason that there will be different expectations and needs and in order to be able to meet those needs the submissive may well need to adapt and change a little. This relationship though is this girl's first proper D/s relationship and consequently she is finding out what submission means and feels like in a whole new way. Master has the experience to guide his girl and what is more He is clear about what He expects from her. This makes the changes easier to manage, in fact they pretty much happen without girl noticing till afterwards. The changes relate to her behaviour both when they are together and apart, to the way in which He reminds her she needs to concentrate by switching into the third person with her, by the way she dresses for Him, knowing it pleases and by embracing the pain and humiliation He gives. This girl knows who owns her, all of her.


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